Unexpected Day
My plans today have not unfolded. I only plan to take J to school and pick her up after. Anything else that happens it's up to the Allfather and his minions.
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Letting Go and Moving On
This morning I find myself deep in introspection. A melody on repeat in my head, https://open.spotify.com/track/422KiARY66YzkPblpZ37ub?si=E6yYPuLtRcOub6KUlADtwg and my thoughts walking old roads. For perhaps the first time ever, my thoughts touched on and shied away from my fair Lucian, who used to fill my dark heart with comfort. His heavy lidded gaze used to comfort me, but this morning his gave is replaced with mahogany. When I think of comfort for my dark heart, Lucian doesn't spring to mind. He used to, his dark tendencies, his presence used to soothe the darker desires to bite, to claw; but now his lanky build has filled out in my head. The book i secret away in my shed with its dented heart, a symbol of what I left behind, of what I allowed myself to release from my life, because E said it must be so, to keep him. But after 20+ years I've still held a portion for my heart for that echo of a past, and I'm ready to let go - for O. I've given that piece to Otsoa. An...