Letters to my best friend...

It's almost funny.. you tell me i can be selfish - but when i was selfish with my emotions and actions my family scolded me... Because i was paying attention to my need to hangout with you, i was being selfish and not putting the kids (or E) first... So i don't argue my desire to keep you close, because i'm being selfish. I'm not listening to your desires if i beg you to stay close. I'm not hearing you say you dislike CA and want to go back to MO, if i'm begging you not to go.. and i can't do that.. So I'll listen, and let you go if you must, and cry alone in the wee hours when no one is watching..

  I ask you to remember that as a witch, symbols mean a great deal to me - they carry meaning and significance. Take note of the rings I wear, and in which order; the necklace I wear, and the jewelry, they all have Meaning to me. Can you be content in a shadow roll on my heart? The feelings are very real, but I've no reason to break vows and until then... I wear our band closest to my heart, nearest to my lifeblood, because with every waking day, I find myself closer to you. With everything you do, I see a man growing in strength, and healing from years of trauma. I know you will never be 'whole', that you will always be 'healing'; it is the nature of your wounds. But one day, I believe, you won't be so on edge and afraid of snapping or hurting someone. And if it ever comes, a day when you do hurt someone, they'll have deserved every drop of sweat you gave them. When your energy is through the roof, and you're bouncing off the walls, I find it to be into...