To be or not to be... selfish...

It's almost funny.. you tell me i can be selfish - but when i was selfish with my emotions and actions my family scolded me...
Because i was paying attention to my need to hangout with you, i was being selfish and not putting the kids (or E) first...

So i don't argue my desire to keep you close, because i'm being selfish. I'm not listening to your desires if i beg you to stay close. I'm not hearing you say you dislike CA and want to go back to MO, if i'm begging you not to go.. and i can't do that..
So I'll listen, and let you go if you must, and cry alone in the wee hours when no one is watching..