Selfish, yea, maybe.

What if I just left? Packed a bag, grabbed my devices, and left. I'd have no respect left for myself, leaving my kids behind, they're not better off with Josh. But maybe they'd be better off without me. And I wouldn't have that oath sitting over my head. My dad wouldn't be very proud of me, but he's gone anyway; surely the guilt of letting him down won't follow me forever. But what if I left…