Adulting Fail

So last night was...interesting...
Yesterday was a mixed bag, the PTConference was Thursday at 1pm. I arrived at 1pm.. to find I had the date WAY wrong. So I went to Tractor Supply instead, to get dog food. To have my card declined. So I went to my Dr. Appt that was scheduled for 2pm. Sat in their office for at least 1.5 hours before we were even called back to be seen.
Only surprising thing with the dr visit was a NORMAL blood pressure reading (something that hasn't happened since I was at least 20!)
After leaving the doctors (4:15pm) i went to the bank, cleared up the card, went to back to Tractor Supply and got the dog food then went home.

E got hot and bothered over my dress (one he bought me) and sought relations. That was when I discovered much to my surprise that HellKatt has been lingering beneath the surface, and she knows how to turn off arousal.
O called to her a couple weeks ago while we snuggled, in a bid to get her to rise, and she started. She raked his back a few times, but otherwise kept quiet.
Last night she showed herself by repeatedly turning off physical reactions to E's teasing.

Today, I'm finding that it had some unexpected, but not unexpected, reactions in me. I woke, made my Ryze Coffee, played some pay-games, took J to the bus, came home, did a 7min workout (3rd day in a row), went for a walk to check on the Sapphire Gems I bought yesterday, and came back inside to make breakfast.
But what I really want is to say fuck adulting, hope in the car, and drive down to O. My body, and mind, are both hyper spicy!

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