Secret Admiration

Another reason I don't want to get between the ‘whatever’ that is between you and Danni, is because I know if I start defending you to him; he'll see. He'll see the affection, the favoritism, and the admiration.

I want to go to my friends, those I trust, and talk about how much you mean to me. I want to tell Kathy, D, and anyone else who will listen about the piece of ME you've stolen. But I also want to keep it quiet, to relish you, alone; and not let the world intrude.

I want those I care about to know the YOU I see when the turmoil weighs you down, the YOU I see when someone stacks stress on your shoulders; the YOU I see each day.

While we were out today, the car was full, and it struck me how complete I felt. You in the car, and your bobbin, and my bobbins; the music blaring and just rolling down the street. I felt at peace. A part of me felt excitement at the idea of a family road trip; a bigger part than I'd have anticipated.