Selfish, yea, maybe.

I can't even begin to understand how things went so sour so fast. Today you're the one talking me off the ledge. Talking me back from making decisions based on rage. Convincing me not to do the things I shouldn't. So I throw my side blade to the back of the car. Now you're talking of leaving, more solid than ever before, and I know I can't keep you here; but if you have to go, I want to, too. I'm here because you asked me to try to work things out with him, so I stayed. I don't know what I want to do now.

Promise made, and kept. 50 years, my Wolf - E accuses you of using me, the only reason you convinced me to return to the house today, was to use me further. He says “he's not your friend, you're his victim” and expects me to accept it. So I told him you convinced me turn back. You've been the reason I'm still here - and now you're leaving… but you still lock me in place, to keep my promise to you to keep and protect Jade. Lady Bast is really having her way with her pupil, and I'd rage against it - except that it allows me to keep you in my life somehow. E accepts that if we take in Jade, visits will likely happen, supervised, but still, visits and I will be able to keep you updated on her, and I… Jade will be safe, my Wolf, even as I promised it; and you will be in my thoughts, in my heart, and in our lives.