I find I am moderately jealous of R, largely because she can openly do what I wish to. K on the hand, when that green monster rose, it had other reasons. That witch tried to claim a thing that I saw as mine, and worse, tried to make that thing something it was not. My Wolf is no one's property! And only ‘my Wolf’ in the sense that I get to love him, for he is his own person and free to do what he will, you dumb narcissistic cunt. So back the fuck off and stop whining to me about how you can't stop thinking of someone you didn't fully appreciate anyway! Step off! Or Bast will be petitioned to end your toxicity so that your child may thrive!

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