Selfish, yea, maybe.

I can't win for losing!! I answer your needs over the girls, I get shit from the girls. I answer the girls' needs over yours, I get accused of not being in your corner. And people ask me what I'd do if I could go back in time and fix one mistake. Right now, it would be marrying Josh. I'd been old and bitter by the time I met you, but with your history maybe that'd be fine. I want, one day, to hear you refer to them as stepchildren, not siblings… I want to lay down to sleep next to you, wake up next to you, go through LIFE with you! I don't want either of our last days to be filled with regret (whenever they come) but mine already are. I regret not meeting you sooner.