Selfish, yea, maybe.

Valentine's Day, and while it's more a commercial day, I'd rather spend it with you.

Otsoa, I hope you realize that you are NOT my “second choice”; had you been there when I swore vows with Josh, I'd not have sworn them to him. You are NOT my “backup” plan, in that i want to keep you on the sidelines as an “if it doesn't work out”. You're my “next step”, if you'll have me. THE person, my person, the icon of my soul, that I will turn to when my current union vows dissolve for whatever reason.

I won't go against the union vows I've already sworn, as much as they chafe, because he doesn't deserve it as long as he continues trying to improve. But when they dissolve, you can bet, I'll be on top of the nearest highest mountain, gathering those I hold dear, and declaring to them what I wish I could declare to you. You are the better man, the stronger man, and the man who holds my heart and soul.

You, my Wolf, mean more to me than ever the Dragon did. I know this to be true, because I fear being too far apart from you, yet from the Dragon, I expected the distance. I know this to be true, because of the jealousy I feel when others can spend more time with you than I. I know this to be true, because when I wake, my first thought is of you, when I lay down at night my last thought is of you. When you declared you were done with relationships, I at once felt a thrill of joy and trepidation; because I felt I was exempt, but I worry that I'm wrong.

There is a shadow of a ring around my soul, etched with your name. I only wait until you make it real. I have decided; the final decision is yours.