again..

He's in a bad mood, and throws my decisions in my face. Yes, I choose to stay. I choose to protect your child, from everything if I can.. I choose stability, for your child. I choose him, because the alternative meant I wouldn't be keeping the promise to keep her safe! I stay because it protects her!

One day, one day, it'll be you I'm standing up for against the world. For now I'm choosing your child! It's tearing me up day by day that I made this choice, because I love someone that was not stable or safe for her. At night I sleep with tear stains for a pillow, by day I force myself to smile and joke like I'm not dying by the second. A voice soothe the hurting, but it does not stop it. And the accusations, the apparent lack of understanding makes it bleed more... I choose you, my Wolf, I choose her...

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