Appreciation and Affection

Today, as I worked out problems with Danni, the only one I wanted to talk to about it was you. Not because it had to do with you, but because you had a point of view that voiced that which I didn't want to. 

Your innocence when it comes to the animals is adorable. It pulls a smile from me every time you find something out you didn't know before.

Today I felt so much pride wash over me, you had stress come up and brush your cheek, and you kept yourself in check. You didn't let yourself get angry at a ‘little brother’; and then, even more impressive you controlled yourself when your x-in-laws brought you more stress. I couldn't begin to express how very happy it made me to hear you taking steps to control your mood. It was another glimpse of a man I saw lurking in your eyes all those months ago. The man who could take in the stress, and walk among those shadows without the need to act. I wanted nothing more at that moment than to wrap my arms around you and give you some reassuring affection for a job well done. 

It's such a simple gesture, the head scritch, and while I understand that you enjoy them, in that moment you deserved far more than that. 

And speaking of head scritches, when I receive them I melt. The stress or worry chasing through my head quietly under those fingertips; an odd sensation for me. I never knew that something so minor could have that effect on me. Thank you for teaching me this about myself.