Spring Cleaning and Rabbit Plans

Well, today started slowly. It was too cold outside for me to be willing to go out and do the spring cleaning in the rabbit shed that I planned to do last night. Though, around 1pm I finally got up the motivation to see the task started. I and the two kids I had help me got all but 1 cage finished (to back to, tomorrow).

I'm eager for Saturday, where I'll be buying 2 new Dutch; 1 for my middle, and 1 for myself.

I'm moderately disappointed that I didn't go to Parhump like I'd planned, but with too much negativity around the whole trip I decided not to go. Just means I sit around the house doing next to nothing because I've got nothing else to do.

I wish I could spend some time with O like I'd had planned for today, but it is what it is. I'll sit here, alone (because the girls are all in separate parts of the house doing their own thing) and my husband is at work until midnight.

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