Betrayal and Rage

Rage, betrayal and rage.. its all I've felt for days. I'll go back and fill in days, facts at least, events. But today, its just raw anger.

E is a hypocrite. "Make me a drink... so my back might stop hurting." But when O speaks of drinking to deadening pain he's in the wrong. Yes, I admit, there was more to Os drinking than just the drinking - but that's where it fucking starts!! It's a drink here and there to soften the pain, and progresses until you're drinking to much, having someone promise to stand by you and help and then stabbing you in the fucking back! He's a fucking hypocrite!! I want to scream at him, throw it in his face; but if I do he'll see it as a different attack, he'll argue it off. And I'll be the person in the wrong!

I just want my Wolf in my life, not this vague shadow in the distance!!!