Confused Heart

So O blames me for his excessive drinking...

And he isn't planning for me to be in his life in the future..?

What am i fighting for??

I've never been this hung up on a guy, this 'messed up' over a guy's opinion. I've been close, with the Dragon, and with Todd, but never like this.

I've never been wrong up and hung out to dry like this. My emotions locked on how he feels. I just don't get why he has me so wrapped up. If this is love, I'm not entirely sure I want to keep it around - but also absolutely certain I only want him.