Emotional Day with Unexpected News

Today started out decently enough. I had the mental fortitude to start working on rewriting the Chapter Manual for the Federation. But before that I found my familiar Gypsy giving birth to her second litter of kittens.

By noon, however, I was starting to feel like something was off, and couldnt put my finger on it. There was just, this feeling, that I couldnt shake.

I pushed forward with my day, ignoring it as best as I could, picking up my foster from the school bus, collecting the mail, settling in at home to go back to the document, or a game on the PC. But the mail held an unexpected surprise, a court summons for my Wolf, with a warrant for his arrest as a reward if he failed to appear. Confused, concerned, and unconvinced it was his, I took a Pic of the mailer and sent it to him via sms. I put the court case on his schedule, and then, still confused scanned it and emailed him a better copy to read.

That done, I felt suddenly very drained, and went to lay down in bed. I laid there and stifled tears and sobs, cause I wanted to hold my Wolf, not just message him bs shit.

After a bit I realized I wasnt gonna drift to sleep for a nap, so I gave up and got back up. E asked me for something from his car, so I complied; realized it was pleasant outside, and decided to walk a few laps around the horse arena.

My mind felt scattered, and shattered and on the precipice of a full melt down as I started walking. A few phone calls alter, I felt a little less shattered, but the edge of the breakdown still looked.

Now, hours later, its still there just ahead of me, but I can avoid it, if I can just get to sleep. The wolves will be there in my dreams to guide me from the ledge, if I can just find them.