Marital Strain & Uncertainty

I'm uncertain how I feel today. Two days ago I tore into my husband, in a rage; ready to walk out the door for good. Yesterday, I struggled most of the day to the most basic of things, exhausted, overwhelmed, and stressed.

I slept for 7 hours, but my body informs me im still tired.

Yesterday O was all over the place mentally, manic, and confused at times. Saying first one thing, than another; and i wasnt close enough to help. I spent the last two days 'following' him around from place to place, to the point that he turned off his tracking, so now I cant see him at all. I suppose i deserve it, really; but the silence today was deafening and I found myself excusing away the silence. He said that wasnt the case, when he finally called. Im lost. I love him, irrevocably, but the tiniest part of me is starting to question - not lose faith, just wanting answers.

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