Internal Conflict

We need to talk...

What do you think would happen if....

I've been thinking...

Somehow, none of those seem right.

I know it happened a while ago, but...

This is my ranch, my oil revenue goes into the whole mortgage...

You remember how I'm polyamourous, well...

I love you, but I'm not still in love with you; and haven't been in years. I tried to make it work anyway, hoping it'd change, but it just hasn't. Now the kids are all grown, and we're only responsible for Jade...

But we're responsible for Jade. You agreed to protect her, even as I did. I cant risk that safety, Im still bond bt a promise to her father to keep her safe, and if our marriage is on the rocks, what might that means for her.

You've laid hands on 2 of our three kids, over the years, and not just to discipline. I will not allow there to be a third incident. You've learned much since then, I know, we both have.

I'm thinking I may go stay with Dee for a week or two, once your back on your feet. And maybe never return...but there's Jade. God's, for the love of my sanity, help me understand the right path. Let him say where she lives (cause im fairly sure it will be with me for a while yet) then I can slip away with my granddaughter. But then im leaving my bobbins with a man they only sometimes respect. And im stuck, again. I'm generally fucked, and stuck here with a man I love, but am no longer in love with, because I cant leave my bobbins here - i won't!

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