Tired of Hiding

Im getting so tired of hiding how I feel.  I understand how they don't see him for who I see,  that they don't know him for who I know.  I don't fucking care. Im tired of not being able to race up to him, wrap my arms around his neck and plant a kiss on him. Im tired of not being able to lean over and kiss him when he does something i feel he should be kissed for. Im tired of not feeling like i have the right to arrest his physical play, because he's my Wolf, and only mine. But he's not, until there is one less ring on my wedding finger.  Im tired of biting my tongue around people who know, but don't know.  Im so very tired of not being able to embrace the man i love when my stress is through the roof. I want him to be able to wrap his arms around me and drain away some of the emotions that are overwhelming me.