Conflicted Love & a Call from O

My husband touched me last night, intimately,  but my mind replaced his hands with those of O. My husband's intimate kisses, and nibbles, replaced by imaginings of Os. My body rose to desire, but mind replaced E with O in every heartbeat.

This morning, O calls and starts by saying he doesnt want two witches fighting over him, that hes not a turf war. Then tells me he felt guilty because he felt comfortable at someone else's house. Then questions that I killed something, but when I asked, he only hung up.

I begin to worry that he thinks I cast some spell to capture his heart, but I didn't; on my place as priestess of Bast, I didn't.

Ive only ever Cast protections, for him, for his daughter. Severed threads that shouldn't hold him, but never Bound him to me. The Bond we shared, was not by my hand. He told me he wasnt wearing his necklace, something I never told him he had to wear, and was feeling guilty.

I want to drive out to him, but hes 3 hours away right now.

I feel like im lossing him, though he was never mine to hold. I love him, and I want him around for as long as possible, but with my marriage - I never claimed him mine. Alright, so maybe I did. But not in the 'no one else can have him' way, but in the 'he is who I cherish, he who alters my mood with a breath, my thought with a whisper, and my pulse with a look' kind of way.